( finn/sam verse ) vacation

[lormenari]

Finn,

Hey, it's me. Sam. I just wanted to say that I'm going to miss you a lot while I'm gone. I wish I could just stay here with you, but I can't, so I'll make do with talking to Neytiri for company. It's just two weeks, it'll be over before we know it. Be good, ok? Go out and have some fun. Don't spend all your time in your room playing video games. I'll be thinking of you.

♥,
Sam (I am)

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[Sam is alone, lying on the floor on top of a pile of blankets. He strokes Neytiri, who's snuggled up beside him. He should be asleep, but he can't stop thinking about Finn. In a few more days he'll be back in Lima, but it feels like an eternity away. He can't wait to have Finn with him again, to be able to hug and kiss him. Sam sighs, nestling his face close to Neytiri's and letting her wet nose bump against his cheek. He's been thinking about Finn almost constantly during this whole trip. Being apart has given Sam some perspective on his feelings, and now he's certain that this isn't just a passing relationship like Quinn and Santana had felt like. What he has with Finn feels so real that it's almost scary. Stevie and Stacey are asleep in the guest bedroom with his mom, and Sam had offered to sleep on the living room floor. His dad is going to sleep on the couch, but he's still in the other room with Sam's aunt. Sam can hear them talking softly as he strokes Neytiri and starts whispering.]

I'm gonna admit something to you, okay?

[He still can't bring himself to tell anyone else that he might be gay, or how deep he suspects his feelings for Finn run, but right now he feels like saying this out loud, even if it's just to his dog, is the most important thing in the world.]

Neytiri... I miss Finn. I miss him a lot. He just... he means everything to me. He even gave me you. [Sam smiles to himself and rubs Neytiri's head.] He's the best guy I know, and I really, really don't deserve how awesome he's been to me. But somehow, we're boyfriends. Somehow, in between all the shit that's going on in my life right now, I've managed to have a relationship with the most awesome guy in the world that I've been crushing on since the first day of school. And... I think I love him. Like, really love him. I think this is the real deal. This isn't like how I told Quinn I loved her. I never loved her, not really. It never felt like this.

[Sam hugs Neytiri and closes his eyes, pulling the blankets over them both. It's like a weight has been released from his chest now that he knows how he feels.] I'm in love with Finn. And I can't wait to tell him.