The smile on his face was wide when he picked the phone up, seeing Sam's name on his caller ID, and even more when he hears Sam's voice, "It is! I've been thinking about you -- constantly. All the time." And he really has. He might've driven Kurt crazy with Sam this, and Sam that, and if he didn't suspect before, he probably did now.
Sam has the biggest grin on his face when Finn answers. "I've been thinking about you, too. Constantly. All the time. Things have been okay here, but I just miss you. A lot. And Neytiri says hello." Sam puts the phone near Neytiri and laughs when she barks into it.
He laughed at Neytiri's bark, and he lets out a soft sigh. This was exactly what he missed, just being able to talk to Sam. It was hard. "How much longer until you get back? I don't know how much more of this I am going to be able to take." He didn't realize how... lonely he was, without Sam around. And now that he was finally beginning to understand, well...
"Just a few more days." Sam twists the phone cord around his fingers, sitting down on the couch after glancing behind him to make sure no one's around. "I can't talk for too long. My aunt doesn't want me to run up her phone bill. I just... really needed to talk to you. And to hear your voice." His nerves are back, but it doesn't change how sure he feels about Finn now.
"A few more days feels like it will be years," he said, voice raising dramatically. He's completely teasing and joking, and he grinned, but the smile faded at the tone of voice Sam has, "Needed? Is something wrong?" He's instantly concerned and worried. "Nothing's happened or anything, has it?"
"No, it's nothing like that. I'm fine." Sam hates to worry Finn. It makes him feel so guilty. "Really, everything's good. My parents haven't killed any of my aunts or uncles yet, and I haven't killed Stevie or Stacey yet, so everything's going well. I've just been thinking about you so much since we've been apart. Thinking about... us."
Finn laughed again, and it was also slightly relieved, because he was glad that Sam was having a good time. He knew Sam needed time away, even if it sucked, and that they did miss each other, and it just seemed to come at a perfect time, didn't it? "Thinking about us?" He was curious, and he glanced down at his hands, playing with a loose thread on his jeans, "What about us?"
Sam swallows so hard he's sure Finn can hear the sound over the phone. "Well... it's just being apart kind of puts things in perspective, I guess. It helped me think a little clearer about us. And it made me realize something pretty important." Sam takes a breath, glancing behind him again. He can hear his dad and his aunt talking in the dining room. Sam lowers his voice. "I've never said this and truly meant it with anyone else before. But... last night I was just thinking and talking to myself, and everything kept coming back to you, and I realized that... that..." He swallows again, telling himself to stop rambling and just say it. He closes his eyes and whispers into the phone. "I love you, Finn. I really, really... love you."
"I..." He forgot how to breathe, and his eyes went impossibly large at Sam's words, and he opened and closed his mouth several times. He... had no idea what to say to that. Because he hadn't been expecting it, and it made him so happy, but at the same time, hearing it returned to him, made him feel terrified. Because he knew his feelings were strong for Sam, and the thought that if he messed up? Like he'd been doing after every turn lately? It could ruin everything, and he did love Sam an impossible amount. "...wow, I wasn't expecting to hear that from you." But he's smiling, widely finally, as he lets it finally sink into his head, because there was only one response he could give Sam, if he was completely honest to them both. "And I love you, Sam. So much that it's really kinda crazy."
Sam lets out a nervous but delighted laugh. "I know, this is kind of random. It would have been better if I'd waited until I could tell you in person. I just really wanted you to know. I didn't want you to go one more second without knowing how much I care about you." Sam can't stop smiling at Finn's words. "I know. It's crazy and scary. But I wouldn't give it up for anything. I just feel alive when I'm with you, and that's worth everything to me." Sam feels tingly and light, and his face is starting to hurt from smiling so much. "I've got to get off in a minute. But it's seriously so good to hear your voice, Finn."
"I told you online first, at least you told me over the phone," Finn let out a small laugh, his voice still caught, and now he knew he wouldn't lose his smile, probably all week. Because... wow. He smiled slightly, trying to find his voice again, "...You you mean everything to me, Sam. Just so you know. I know we're still finding ourselves again, after fighting and everything, and then all... this... but you do." He made a face at himself, because wow dude, can you sound any sappier? "I'm... really happy about hearing from you, too."
"I think we're good right now," Sam says softly. "Really good. I can't wait to come back and show you just how much I love you." Sam makes himself stop there, because he'll be on the phone all night if he starts thinking about seeing Finn. "All right, I've gotta go. Hang in there just a few more days, okay?"
He grinned, and choked back a laugh at Sam's words, "We'll have to try that sometime when you get back. Dirty talk over the phone. And I'm not even kidding, because if you didn't have to go right now, I'd be tempted to tell you how much I love you, too." Okay, he was only slightly kidding, but his cheeks were a soft red at the idea of seeing him now in a couple days, because it was all totally different now. Amazing now, even.
"We definitely have to try that." Sam bites his lip and laughs, flushing. He imagines Finn probably looks the same. He's definitely going to need a moment in the shower tonight. "Bye, Finn. Take care, okay? I'll be thinking of you."
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